Crystal the Bear

My little break.

2009-05-31T01:45:00.000-07:00

I'm on a bit of a break right now, all I have going is work 6 hours a week. I'm going to start summer classes June 16, English and Astronomy.
Corey's summer classes are during my break unfortunately (college summer classes aren't all at the same general time). I've been able to keep myself occupied though.

I got a handful of good books from Borders. Reading two right now. An Anne Rice book for the day and an easy young adult book to read before bed. Anne Rice books are often to thought provoking to read before bed. Haha!

I've also been playing some video games. Video games are so expensive! They're about 50-60$ right when they come out. It's crazy. Getting the used games that have been out for a while from GameStop is a pretty good deal. I got a game for 14$ that was 3 times the price when it first came out.

I've also been playing an old Game boy Advanced Pokemon game that I downloaded on my laptop. Forgot how fun those pokemon games can be.
I'm going to stay at my grandparents house (from my moms side) next weekend. That's always a nice time.

Twitter?

2009-05-10T15:07:00.000-07:00

What the heck is Twitter? I thought I understood it for a second, but alas no. I even looked it up on Wikipedia and simply became more confused. Is it like a text message blog?

If you have no idea what twitter is be creative and make something up.

Example: I say that a twitter is when someone twitches and stutters at the same time.

Nose

2009-05-08T04:36:00.000-07:00

I got my nose pierced. I've been thinking about getting a piercing for a long time and I finally just went for it. Neither of my parents like them very much, but I'm a big girl now soooo yeah. They didn't really care to much, just teased me a bit.

It hurt pretty bad getting it done. Doesn't help that I'm scared of needles.I just kept my eyes shut the whole time and focused on breathing/not passing out. I got pretty lightheaded and nausious due to being freaked out. It's amazing how some peoples bodies react to fear.

I'm pretty happy with how it looks. I chose a ring to start out with because they're easier to keep clean than a stud. I'll consider getting a stud kind after the healing process is done.

I've been cleaning it like crazy because I really really dont want it to get infected. My immune system is kinda crummy so who knows how it'll go. It's really hard not to touch it right now because its currently pretty itchy. I guess it's normal for it to be itchy since it's a healing wound, like a scab. That weird itchy pain feeling.

Thats what I get for putting holes in my face though, haha!

Heres a picture, taken a few days ago when I got it done. My nose it a little swollen. Probably only I can tell though since I know my face pretty well.

My birthday is comming up. Thinking of some good loot to ask for. I'm hoping for a DSi because I'm nerdy like that. If was rich I'd want this bed. Isn't it cool? *random*

Is anybody out there?

2009-03-18T18:19:00.000-07:00

Something you may not know about me.

I find the possibility of “alien” life fascinating.

Hang on! Don’t hang up on me. Let me explain.

Many people would go “oh geez not alien crap…” but I don’t mean in an E.T kind of way. Really just finding a planet that could sustain life would be amazing.

They’ve found one that they think is in the right spot by its star to have the conditions for life. It’s astounding to think about! The planet Gilese 581 C is at the right distance from its star to have the right conditions. It may be at the right temperature for liquid water, which is a biggie for the whole life thing to work out.

Gilese 581 C is the first planet we’ve found in that right spot so far. So counting us that makes two. Doesn’t sound good, but if you think about it just us with our wee technology being able to find something must mean that there are plenty more out there. Personally I think considering all the galaxies out there and such, there HAS to be at least some planets that can have some form of life. Intelligent would be cool, but that might be asking for too much.

Right now travel to any of the planets we might find is looking pretty impossible. I mean we don’t even have the means to know what the planet we’ve “found” even looks like. The way they figure out the distance from its star has to do with math and stuff. (I know I have very fancy lingo) It’s not like we have a pretty little photo.

I really don’t think much in the ways of alien discovery will be made in my lifetime. I’m not expecting any visitors to say. But still, keeping up on the baby steps we make can be very exciting.

I try to remain optimistic about our species not blowing itself up before we get to the point were we have the technology to really figure out this “alien life” business. We probably will though. We’re pretty good at blowing stuff up.

Question for Beth- Memory.

2009-02-08T03:42:00.000-08:00

I had a question for Beth. So I was daydreaming (shocker I know) and I remembered this story I heard a long time ago. Mind you the memory is so patchy I'm not even sure if its a real memory.

The memory is of a book on tape we listened to while (I think) we were driving up to Zion National Park. This was a looong time ago- it was that time I got all sick and went home early with strep throat.

Anyway... I remember that the story was really weird, but I liked it alot. It was about this kid that goes to this other world. Everything there is all fun and awesome at first, until he starts realising things gone amiss. I think there is holidays alot. I remember there was this fish pond. Then later he finds out that the fish were really kids that turned into to fish. At the end the house goes all crazy and evil.

Ring any bells? Its really bugging me alot. Don't feel bad if you're clueless though, I'm not even sure if it was in your car I heard the story.

Busy

2008-11-07T17:33:00.001-08:00

So I'm a crazy person and took on another job on top of my babysitting. I'm training to be a photographer in the Sears Photo Studio. So yeah now I have two jobs and am a full time student. Ahh what was I thinking? I'm pooped.

Also my dad got his back surgury done and just got back home from it the other day. It went well, but he's in some pain. Hes not as grouchy as I thought he'd be though!

5 things

2008-10-19T06:34:00.000-07:00

I was tagged by beth. Thanks beth!

The 5...

Ten years ago I was.......
1. wrote a story for school about two baby bears, one named Whitey (a polar bear) and the other Blacky (a black bear) and how they were running away from hunters in the woods
2. moved to a new school with all new kids
3. loved playing "imagination games"
4. struggled with schoolwork. cursive and times tables.
5. loved pokemon

5 things on my "to do" list.....
1. laundry
2. get my notebook from corey's house so I can do some studying
3. scan in the pictures I drew so I can Illustrate them for my class
4. cash in checks
5. figure out why I have antsy nights like this where I just CANT sleep

5 snacks I enjoy.........
1. cookies
2. Cuties soy ice cream bars
3. chewie bars
4. Gummy Snacks
5. sour candy

5 places I have lived
1. lil' house in Gardena
2. big house Newbury Park Dos Vientos
3. Bigger house in Newbury Park Dos Vientos
4. Good sized older house in Moorpark
5. Amazing house in Newbury Park, on a the top of a hill.

5 jobs I have had........
1. babysitting for cousins/family
2. babysitting for neighbors/their friends
3. Usher at the movie theaters
4. mothers helper with a baby
5. I've done some graphic design favors for people I know for no charge. not really a job but I could've charged sooo ya.

5 things I would do if I was a multi-millionaire........
1. Donate TONS
2. Do chariety work
3. Help out my friends and family
4. Get some awesome stuff
5. Travel

I'd tag people but I think the people I know have already did this or have been tagged.

Prop 4

2008-10-19T05:09:00.000-07:00

((I know I've been a bit political lately but this stuff matters alot to me so bear with me))

For the third time in four years, Proposition 4 is a ballot measure which would endanger teens by mandating parental notification 48 hours in advance of a minor terminating a pregnancy. Parents rightfully want to be involved in their teenagers' lives, and the good news is that most teens do go to their parents when faced with an unintended pregnancy. However not all teens are in a situation where it’s safe for them to go to their parent. Not everyone has the loving parent that they deserve. Please understand that while it’d be wonderful if all teens could go to their parents in their time of need, not all are in a position where it’s safe for them to be able to. Please vote NO on prop 4. Don't put these girls at risk.

Babysittin'

2008-10-18T00:44:00.000-07:00

A few things I've learned from my nanny/mothers helper job.
1. Ponytails are key unless you want your hair pulled
2. Try to get your baby used to a baby sling before its too late or you'll have tired arms
3. Growing in teeth sucks
4. The smell of baby powder lingers on ones hands- according to Corey
5. The sounds baby swings make to help the baby sleep make me tired too

Its good to know the facts

2008-10-17T03:13:00.000-07:00

I've seen some interesting and slightly confusing ads about Prop 8. lately so I did some research. Personally I'm for gay marriage, but I'm against forcing churches to marry people if they dont want to. It's wrong to force people to do something they're opposed to. I'm not sure how you all feel about gay marriage... but however you feel personally about this topic, I think it's important to not be misled. Know the facts about Prop. 8 before voting. :]

Fiction: Teaching children about same-sex marriage will happen here unless we pass Prop 8.

Fact: No child can be forced, against the will of their parents, to be taught anything about health and family issues at school. California law prohibits it. Sacramento Superior Court Judge Timothy Frawley has already ruled that this claim by Prop 8 proponents is “false and misleading.”

Fiction: Churches could lose their tax-exemption status.

Fact: Nothing in gay marriage would force churches to do anything. In fact, the court decision regarding marriage specifically says “no religion will be required to change its religious policies or practices with regard to same-sex couples, and no religious officiant will be required to solemnize a marriage in contravention of his or her religious beliefs.”

Fiction: A Massachusetts case about a parent’s objection to the school curriculum will happen here.

Fact: Unlike Massachusetts, California gives parents an absolute right to remove their kids and opt-out of teaching on health and family instruction they don’t agree with. The opponents know that California law already covers this and Prop 8 won’t affect it, so they bring up an irrelevant case in Massachusetts.

Fiction: People can be sued over personal beliefs.

Fact: California’s laws already prohibit discrimination against anyone based on race, religion, gender, or sexual orientation. This has nothing to do with marriage.

Fiction: Unless Prop 8 passes, CA parents won’t have the right to object to what their children are taught in school.

Fact: California law clearly gives parents and guardians broad authority to remove their children from any health instruction if it conflicts with their religious beliefs or moral convictions.

The Right for Women to Vote

2008-09-06T03:43:00.000-07:00

An article I found while browsing the internet. Very inspirational and touching. And I agree with the overall message. I am definately going to vote and not just on presidental things, but the "small" stuff too. Because that matters just as much!

"This is the story of our Grandmothers and Great-grandmothers,
as they lived only 90 years ago. Remember, it was not until 1920 that
women were granted the right to go to the polls and vote.

The women were innocent and defenseless, but they were
jailed nonetheless for picketing the White House, carrying signs
asking for the vote. And by the end of the night, they were barely alive.
Forty prison guards wielding clubs and their warden's blessing went
on a rampage against the 33 women wrongly convicted of 'obstructing
sidewalk traffic.'

They beat Lucy Burn, chained her hands to the cell bars above
her head and left her hanging for the night, bleeding and gasping for air.
They hurled Dora Lewis into a dark cell, smashed her head against an
iron bed and knocked her out cold. Her cellmate, Alice Cosu, thought
Lewis was dead and suffered a heart attack. Additional affidavits
describe the guards grabbing, dragging, beating, choking, slamming,
pinching, twisting and kicking the women.

Thus unfolded the 'Night of Terror' on Nov. 15, 1917, when the
warden at the Occoquan Workhouse in Virginia ordered his guards to
teach a lesson to the suffragists imprisoned there because they dared
to picket Woodrow Wilson 's White House for the right to vote.

For weeks, the women's only water came from an open pail.
Their food--all of it colorless slop--was infested with worms. When one
of the leaders, Alice Paul, embarked on a hunger strike, they tied her
to a chair, forced a tube Down her throat and poured liquid into her until
she vomited. She was tortured like this for weeks until word was
smuggled out to the press.

So, refresh my memory. Some women won't vote this year
because--why, exactly? We have carpool duties? We have to get to
work? Our vote doesn't matter? It's raining?

Last week, I went to a sparsely attended screening of HBO's
new movie 'Iron Jawed Angels.' It is a graphic depiction of the battle
these women waged so that I could pull the curtain at the polling
booth and have my say. I am ashamed to say I needed the reminder.

All these years later, voter registration is still my passion.
But the actual act of voting had become less personal for me, more
rote. Frankly, voting often felt more like an obligation than a privilege.
Sometimes it was inconvenient.

HBO released the movie on video and DVD. I wish all history,
social studies and government teachers would include the movie in their
curriculum. I want it shown on Bunco night, too, and anywhere else
women gather. I realize this isn't our usual idea of socializing, but we
are not voting in the numbers that we should be, and I think a little
shock therapy is in order.

It is jarring to watch Woodrow Wilson and his cronies try to
persuade a psychiatrist to declare Alice Paul insane so that she could
be permanently institutionalized. And it is inspiring to watch the doctor
refuse. Alice Paul was strong, he said, and brave. That didn't make her
crazy.

The doctor admonished the men:
'Courage in women is often mistaken for insanity.'

Please, if you are so inclined, pass this on to all the women you know.

We need to get out and vote and use this right that was fought so hard for
by these very courageous women. Whether you vote Democratic, Republican or
Independent - remember to vote.

yay

2008-08-30T14:54:00.000-07:00

I've been signing up at every babysitting/nanny site that I can find... and it payed off! I have a job now! I'm going to be babysitting a 3 month old two times a week. The job is going to pay 14$ an hour so that makes up for the lack of hours. I'm so excited! The baby is simply adorable and the parents are really nice. I'm thinking of setting up a gig babysitting for a differnt family like everyone weekend in addition to this just to get some extra work in. Well see.

college and laptop

2008-08-22T13:30:00.000-07:00

Well I started college! Yay! Currently Im taking Computer Assisted Illustration and Cultural Anthropology. Two of my other classes start in Sept. I really like then classes Im taking so far, I dont think Ill have too hard of a time with them.

My new Macbook Pro laptop just can in the mail! Yay! Its so freakin awsome.

corey

2008-07-28T18:43:00.000-07:00

Corey in all his bearded glory

Wellll

2008-07-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

I dont really have anything interesting to say, Ill I've been doing lately is going to chill with my Corey and keep him company while his throat heals. (He had his tonsils out.) We've been playing video games, watching movies, and eating ice cream.

I thought I'd share these amusing comics with you though. From the site www.explosim.net

And this is to those who made comments about Coreys beard.

He really should shave though <3

FINE PROM GOSH

2008-07-22T02:03:00.000-07:00

So yeah there is some pictures of prom that I got from some of my friends, since I havnt found the camera I took my own pictures with. Corey kept making zoolander faces in the pctures. I dont really care though, prom is kinda lame. The place they rented for us was way too small. Really bad music. It was dissapointing. But we tried to have a good time and make the best of it. Above theres a picture of me and my friends...dancing? I look more like Im yelling out for someone to save me.

That dosnt go there

2008-07-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

So today I got a tube shoved up my peehole.
Hmm lets back track a wee bit.
I get frequent bladder infections and have been seeing a uriologist about it for a while now. It was desided that they needed to have a good look to make sure that everything was anatomically correct down there. So thus today I had to get a rod with a camera on it up my urethra to check it out.
My mom couldnt take me because we were having guys come look at the house about cable (she felt really bad about not going.) So Corey was a sweetheart and drove me there.
They injected some numbing gell in with a stringe for the pain. They that it'd hurt going in but then it wouldnt hurt after that. Well it hurt all the way through. And that numbing gell didnt do shit. I was screaming, Corey said it looked like I was in labor. It hurt like crazy after words too. A decent amount of blood. Peeing hurt/s something awful. I was in so much pain I got all nausious and threw up while the doctor was talking to me.

Luckily everything is ok with me anatomically. Except the random jolts of pain and horrible flashbacks.

Back In Action

2008-07-10T01:48:00.000-07:00

I havnt posted a blog in FOREVER! I've just been soo busy! Then end of the school year was extremely hetic for me. In addition to all the typical senior stuff, I had a trip to NYC right after school ended AND a new house to move into. All very stressful.

The trip to NYC was very enjoyable, although I was happy to go home when we did. I HATED the subways with a PASSION. They were stuffy, crowded, and smelt often of piss. I was stupid enough to not bring good walking shoes which made life more difficult as well. Luckily my parents have money and love towards my feet and bought me some shoes.

Heres a quick overview of my NYC Trip
-Events: Large amount of shopping, Young Frankenstein the musical, Gypsy (musical), a Comedy Club (Jim Gaffigon showed up!), and a Modern Dance thing
-Items Bought: 2 dresses, 1 barret, 1 t-shirt, 1 purse, Bottle of Perfume, Shoes, Necklace for sister, Collogne for Corey, Pink Floyd record for Corey, A ton of different vinyl toys from Kidrobot and such stores.

Good loot no?

Moving was miserable of course, but its better now that we're more settled in. Ive been having a difficult time sleeping since we moved. Im going to paint my room soon. We STILL dont have internet (Im on my dads computer) or TV. Its killing me a wee bit. Ive been doing a large amount of video game playing and book reading to keep myself entertained.

Thats all for now. I'd like to start keeping up on this once Im actually able to (CURSE YOU LACK OF INTERNET!!) :(

Midnight Calls

2008-05-20T16:08:00.000-07:00

I know I still havnt posted about Prom stuff, I promise I will, I just need to get all the pictures from it together. Paitence. Anyway on to what this blog is about.

Last night at about 12:30 I got an unexpected call on my cell phone. It was my ex Jared (the one I dated for a long time.) From the gibberish he was saying apparently he'd taken shrooms and was freaking out. I was pretty pissed, I've told Im countless times to leave me along and now this? Then he was saying how he needs me there and how he needs someone to get him. I told him to call someone else for help and hung up.

I told my parents what was going on and my dad told me if he called again to give the phone to him. Well of course he called again. I talked to him for a bit and he appeared in the same condition. What I got out of him was that he was with one other guy who was also on shrooms and they were in the hills somewhere. (Morons) I told him Im giving the phone to my dad.
His reaction: Wait no!
Him: well maybe thats a good idea..
My dad told him he'd get him if he really needed it, but they freaked out and hung up on him.

The whole thing was really upsetting, its amazing how much people can change. Its really unfair of him to do this to me. I shouldnt have to worry about weither two kids are going to die in the hills or not. I dont need or want him in my life and he keeps pushing himself back in. Hes not someone I want to be involved with in anyway what so ever. Im going to call his parents and tell him that if their son keeps bothering me Im going to get a restraining order. Im done with this crap.

Poem-Dandelion

2008-05-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

This is a poem I wrote a bit before Corey and I started dating. So around September. It was around the time when I was dating guys and having trouble finding the right person.. who we now know Ive found. : ] I actually like how this poem came out.

Dandelion

Im sorry for being the weed in your garden
with my leeching roots
pretend Im a flower
for just a moment

pluck at my limbs
chanting to the petals
have you desided
what is our fate

my naked stalk quivering
exposed at your expense
while the children make wishes
scattering the seeds

youll blow me away too
prehaps Ill regrow
to be picked once more
by someone new

A picture I drew on photoshop to match poem. (done rather quickly)

Of Moms and toy whips

2008-05-14T22:40:00.000-07:00

I woke up feeling like crap today, I just couldnt get myself out of this gloomy funk. I was talking to my mom about all the stuff I was stressed out about in the morning (I overslept once again and was very late for school) I made myself a list of things I was stressed about
-laundry
-need to clean room
-vacume
-have to make sure my graduation stuff is ordered
-english school work
-getting files of the schools computer
-setting up fair appointment for prom

When I got home at the end of the day my mom had done a bunch of my laundry for me, cleaned my room a bit, called the graduation place for me, and had set up my hair appointment. It was super sweet of her, I really appreciated it. I swear Im so lucky to have the loving mom I do.

Also, today I went to get spagetti with Corey and his mom for one of his friends funraisers for boyscouts or something of that sort. Pretty much all of the guys we hang out with at lunch showed up with their families. My friends and I walked over to a comic book shop whilst the parents were conversing. It was a neat little shop, it had all kind of nerdy action figures,toys, and of course comics. There was a kid toy of the Indiana Jones whip that made the crack noise and played the theme song when you pressed a button. It was pretty hardcore. Some of the guys got comics and I got an adorable Iron Man figure.

Nosebleed

2008-05-13T21:43:00.001-07:00

The other night, I leaned in to kiss Corey at the same moment he sat up, resulting in him headbutting me in the face. My nose started gushing blood, it scared the crap outta me and hurt like crazy. I couldnt really get mad at Corey cause he felt so bad and seemed pretty embarrassed.

First Post

2008-05-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

Well I desided to make a blog. I was origionally just going to look at my aunts page, but I suppose I got carried away. We'll just have to see how much I neglect this poor blog. Who knows maybe I'll get into it. If I do keep up on this I'll probably post random (probably boring) things about my life, art, poems, and display my horrible spelling for the whole world to admire. : ]